she's buried in the back now. i'm going to respect her grave and never pee on it. i'll even keep IT away from her, because he's starting to pee on EVERYTHING with his leg lifted. i'll be sure love her now, even if i didn't show her how much i loved her while she was alive.
in time i'm sure i'll be able to sleep without thinking of her and missing her warm body. i'll be able to run around and not look for her lying on the floor. i'll be able to eat without thinking of stealing some of her food. i'll be able to go outside without waiting for her to finish her business so we could come inside together. but right now it's still hard. i miss her more than massah and everyone else thinks i do.